First of all, I am sorry for the delay in blogging..I have been super busy with school and softball that I didn't have the time to just sit down and let you know what is on my mind.
So. Let me catch you up a little bit. Zac and I broke up. That's bout all you need to know about that. Nothing to depressing. Classes started and my life just disappeared. I injured my shoulder and had to get treatment on that (I still am actually), then I hurt my back at our first tournament and have been going to treatment for that as well. As far as injuries, yeah I am just broken no matter what I do to prevent it. (Not literally) We had our first Bethel College Softball tournament at McPherson on the 10th of September. We ended up coming out of that tournament 2-2, which is not bad for a beginning program and us girls had never played together. We were suppose to play at a Friends University tournament the 17th of September but due to inclement weather that was cancelled.
This last weekend I went home to see my dad. I miss him.....a lot! And it is always nice to go home to a lady that actually cares about me and wants to help me with anything I ask her about. I suppose I should mention that her name is Alicia. My dad really likes her and I dont disagree. I really like her as well, I get along better with her than I ever will with my mom. Anyways, we just chilled out and relaxed all weekend. Ate dinner with her on Saturday night and then went home to lay on my couch... ahhh...
But the part that this blog is really about. What do you want out of your life?? My grandma just wants to live another 20 or 30 years. But right now she is wondering if that will even happen. Saturday afternoon she was admitted to the hospital in Wichita Kansas called Wesley Medical Center. She was having chest pain, arm pains, and an irregular heart beat. Once she got to the hospital they started taking several test. Eventually they figured out she has a leaking heart valve. At the time they didn't think it was too terribly bad. Then today after I got out of practice my mom (hate it when she text me) text me and told me "Have you talked to gran? She has more news". When I read that I was thinking "Oh good! no surgery at all!" So, I called my grandma (who is back at home) and talked to her about what the news was... It was anything other than good news. The heart doctor called her and told her that her leakage is between medium to severe leaking. When she left the hospital they told her that she didn't need surgery right away and to come back in two months for a check up. Now they are telling her that she needs to come back in two weeks. Which means surgery is in the near future. Then another doctor called her and said that she has bilateral kidney nodules. Which is also bad. and could lead to surgery. AND THEN! her back doctor called her and told her that she has a compressed fracture in her L2 vertebrae which is also yet ANOTHER surgery. None of the other doctors can operate on her until her heart is fixed. The thought of all these surgeries is scary not only to her but to me. I am very close with my grandma. And I lost my grandpa to lung cancer almost 10 years ago. I cant even imagine losing my grandma... At this point in time its just not something i can handle.. its hard enough having my mom who walked out on me trying to walk back in. Then this all on top of that... Life...you just have to go with it.
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