Hey everyone, sorry for such a delay between my post its been pretty crazy around here and I finally got some time tonight to write. Lately there has been something kind of eating at me and I feel like I could share and get some responses. So here it goes, hope you enjoy.
The last 10 years I have been what you would call...unbelievable. No, not in a good way. There have been many different things that I have handled, must I say, the wrong way. A lot of people dont know this about me, only a select few do.
I used to live in Wichita Kansas, currently in Minneapolis Kansas. While I lived there I went through...a LOT! I went from the quiet kid that was always made fun of to the big bad bully that was always in the office. It all started when I was in grade school. One of my friends was being made fun of by a boy and I told him to stop. Well, the boy being a boy, refused to stop. That is when I decided to end things...POW! I punched the kid in the face. Then on he never made fun of my friend again.
A few years later I was attending Discovery Intermediate. There was this girl named Martha, she was kind of fat and red head with glasses. My friends and I were sitting at the lunch table next to her. She was all by herself. One of my friends had said some rude remarks to her. Then I was dared to throw some aluminum foil from our lunch at her. So, I did. Few hours later I spent some time in the office then was sent home for rest of day and recieved an ISS for 2 days. Also during my time at Discovery, I would copy my parents signatures on my test. Yes, I got in trouble for that as well.
Then I moved to Minneapolis Kansas beginning of my 7th grade year. I started out as the kid no one knew. I did everything in my power to be known. Therefore, I hung out with the not so great people. I did some not so great things. I would bully people around and make fun of everyone.
But, once I got into high school things started to change for me. I realized that the only reason that I was doing it was because I was one of those people being made fun of. I was weak and the only way I felt strong was to do what everyone else was doing. I began to treat others better and be more mixed with my friends. The thought of having people not like me because of who I talked to was actually nice to have. Meaning that I was making a difference. I know what it is like to be pushed into the lockers and called names, I was not about to let the people who get that take it all on alone. Throughout high school things got so much better for me.
Now, I am getting ready to start college. I am going to be the under dog again. But, I will not let that stop me from being the nice person I have changed myself to be. Recently I have met a guy, Zac, he is a full blood Christian. Which is really helpful for me. I am trying to rebuild my relationship with God, asking for forgiveness of all the cruel things I have done. He is such a great person all around. I tell him everyday that I am so glad I found him. We both have past. We both want to get away from them. In doing so, we help each other everyday by getting past it all. I could not ask for anything better than Zac.
It is amazing how life works. One day, I am the meanest girl in school. The next, I am the helping hand of those who struggle. I have to give credit to the Lord for giving me the opportunity in changing my life. Without that simple faith that He has in me, I wouldn't be who I am today. Take a brief look at what you have done. Are you wanting to change your ways, like I did? Well, I am 100% sure that if you ask for help He will give it to you. What are you waiting for!? He is listening right now!
Thank you! Hope you enjoyed!
Ky
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